Writing, My Cross Connection, and Class

It has been a while since I posted an actual blog entry. My past few have been poems and my usual drunken (yet written while sober) New Years post. As such, I thought I'd give some kind of new update on things.

In regards to writing, all I can say is that I haven't done much. Last week, my laptop's AC adapter broke off and fell into my laptop. At the moment, I'm fighting my sister and my mother for access to their computer while waiting for the loaner laptop I've been given to be wiped clean. I've done little work in Valley and no work in Fourteen Days. As for Poetry and Stories 2, that was put on an indefinite hold. I've written some poetry since my last post, so I suppose I can say that I have at least done SOME writing.

In regards to music, that has been moving along splendidly. At the moment, My Cross Connection is "headlining" a small music fest currently planned for May. We also feel ready to start moving on for other gigs. Of course, that also means a future trip to Guitar Center soon for new gear. Always a fun thing for musicians to do. Hopefully I'll have the money to buy a Strat during it.

We're also busy working on the next album. While we are still far from recording, there are eight songs we have on the docket for the second album, two of which are from your's truly. There is a third song I wrote that might find itself on the album, but that is still in the air. This next set of songs have something for everyone, from country to an almost Nine Inch Nails sound. Probably didn't think you could have "Christian" and "Nine Inch Nails" be in the same description.

And finally, we have classes. It's my eighth full semester at COD, and so far I am doing alright in them. I'm trying to get as much of my English supplemental work out of the way so I have time to deal with my speech class. I got a good feeling about this semester. I actually have all the books I need (sort of), and plan on staying on top of things.

Lets hope in four months when I get my final grades, I can say the same thing...

...oh, and as always, I'm still single. Maybe I'll meet someone this semester. Maybe...

...can always hope...

...maybe...?

...yeah, I'm not holding my breath either...

Why Oh God?

Written while my sister was in Loma Linda last week. Written as a prayer to God regarding my sister's sickness.


Why Oh God?

Why oh God is this happening
Is this because of my sins
If that's true than this I ask
Why to her and not to me

Once before I asked this question
Receive an answer I knew not
Why Should I question You
Though valid question I believe it is

Read before of same things
David's son taken young
I do not want that to happen
Though better place I know she'd be

I cannot help her have no skill
Music and writing cannot save her
Medicine and science it will take
Knowledge of them I have not

I cannot help her kills me so
It tortures my soul every day
It haunts my dreams every night
Pictures of carrying a child's coffin

Why oh God is this happening
Why is she going through it
She loves You Lord with all her heart
So what purpose does this have

Most people would have left
If they went through what she does
She's never faltered in her faith
She's staying true even now

Are You doing this to test
One of us for a reason
Do not know what it is
That you need to test her for

I ask you when my Lord my God
When will this test be over
How far will you push her Lord
How much more must she endure

Her whole life she has to look
But thirteen and barely started
What possible reason could there be
To put her through such a thing

Why oh God is this happening
Why is it her and not me
Why my God can I not
Take that burden in her place

I am a sinner of the worst
Upon me would no one question
Why these things would be happening
Answer obvious to us all

I may have changed that is true
To You I have turned again
But still a sinner of the worst
I've been forgiven but I can't forget

I still fall into my old sins
What to stop and yet I don't
So no surprise then would there be
If to me her sickness fell

Want this sickness I do not
But take that cup in a heartbeat
To free her from her horrid pain
I would do anything

Why oh God is this happening
How can this serve Your purpose
How can this be Your will
Why does she go through this

Heal her fully of this sickness
You can do with but a touch
I beg You please my Lord my God
Heal her fully of this sickness

I ask You why my Lord my God
Do you not heal of this sickness
How can this serve Your purpose
How can this be Your will

Your purpose and will we cannot know
It's not for us to understand
Have faith and trust in You I know
Is all that I can do for her

I know that You can heal her Lord
I know in time You will heal her
Until then all I can do
Is wait and pray for her health

Heal her fully of this sickness
You can do with but a touch
I beg You please my Lord my God
Heal her fully of this sickness

-Sean Arseo